I feel like I’m never going to be free of the effects of csa!!
When does it end? When will I be able to enjoy a normal sex life? When will I be able to stop creating distance with my husband so that we don't have to have sex? When will the fear stop taking over? When will the anxiety of just being intimate stop? I've argued with my husband this morning because I can feel the fear creeping in re: sex and I'm pushing him away. I don't mean to hurt him. Bizarrely I want nothing more than for us to be close and on side. I feel so upset and frustrated today!
Submitted December 06, 2018 at 02:05PM by Beachgirl1984